EDIT: I DO NOT NEED ADVICE ON WHY IT HAPPENED. THERE IS A VERY GOOD REASON WHY MY DAD USED TO CHOKE WHEN HE WAS ALIVE. MY LOVED ONES == MY DAD.
WORDS OF CONSOLATION ARE WELCOME, ANYTHING ELSE BUZZ OFF, GO BUG SOMEONE ELSE. You either comment to make me feel better under my mental health post or refrain from writing. It’s simple
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Nowadays if anyone even coughs while we are eating I get startled and anxious and if someone starts to choke and gets red I rush in like crazy and do the manoeuvre and then they are OK but I am left trembling and shaking and crying, feel terrible while everyone else is like shrugging it off.
I remember I had to do this many times on my father and it was really scary especially once or twice or thrice I can’t remember as he collapsed to the ground and I couldn’t lift him again and there were red dots on his face saliva dropping and collapsing on the ground
Actually it happened again today now on someone else and it fucking ruined my day and everyone just moved on like it was nothing, chatting happily now in the next room. Like we weren’t this close even tho the person was sitting afterwards with red eyes and face and who the fuck knows what was going to happen
I am anxious to eat certain things alone. I don’t eat fucking apples nor groats and every time I am alone I eat very carefully some things like some gollum hunching over the plate
Why do they not care and chat like nothing happened
I hope you have some sort of therapist to talk to, because this is… gonna take some work.
Forget the “why”. Being there and saving the life of people directly connected to you is traumatic. Full stop. PTSD? I mean, maybe not, but trauma? yes.
There’s a lot going on here, and the only reasonable response is advice. You need advisement. You also need to settle the “why”. Why the rest of the family isn’t concerned? If it’s “normal” there’s a normalization aspect that needs investigation. Why you have had to do the Heimlich on multiple family members? That speaks to it being something specific about your family. Why is it YOU who’s doing it?
Exactly none of this is normal. Yes, you are having the natural reaction to having family almost dying in front of you. You need to figure out the rest. The other symptoms will either make sense, or go away, if you settle the rest.
Looks like ChatGPT is miles better than anything I could get out of posting it online. You guys are even detrimental to mental health. I have forgotten about this fiasco, I was feeling great today and now I have to look at it again and it again worsened my mood.
Even AI knows how to handle this, it will say “I am sorry it happened, it is understandable your situation” etc etc. Like basic things to feel better, you know.
Maybe if you don’t wanna help then you shouldn’t comment in a mental health community? Maybe you should be banned from participating? If all you want is to show your “superior expert knowledge” and get high on giving unwanted advice there is Reddit for it.
This isn’t a place for showcasing your mental acuity. Go away
You either comment to make me feel better under my mental health post or do not. It’s simple