I’m fixing the mistake my parents made by having me and the mistake I made not killing myself 19 years ago life a fucking idiot. My hands are bleeding from punching the wall and I won’t be able to work later anyway. Yeah so fucking funny that a kid is smelly and gross because the parents never taught it how to clean itself and wipe. So funny. It’s stinky because it’s a retard. So fucking funny. And when it learns how to be clean on its own, that’s so funny that it’s trying to be grown and normal like actual people. Funny! So fucking funny that it wants body wash, that’s so funny, a retard asking for body wash instead of an actual human being. Funny! And when it grows older and gets into skincare that’s so funny! It wants to be grown at 23! So funny that a 23 year old bought skincare products at 23 years old, that’s so funny that a 23 year old retard is stepping out of its place to try being normal that’s SO FUCKING FUNNY RIGHT? Yeah the retard should just be the stink and dirty retard it always was instead of an actual human being. I really should have killed myself sooner.

    • A_Union_of_Kobolds@lemmy.world
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      5 months ago

      Whoa whoa whoa, friend, slow down. It’s okay. I’m here. You’re loved. I promise, I mean that.

      I don’t know what you’re going through but I know where I’ve been and what I’m reading here. I know shame. I know anger and resentment. I know feeling trapped at the bottom of a well forever. I know that it seems like someone who was supposed to take care of you and keep you safe didn’t do that, and I’m sorry. Some people had some really terrible attitudes about things and that led them to hurt you, but it’s gonna be okay if you stick around. Okay? Or at least, it can be.

      There is a lot of beauty to find in being alive, and you’ll never see it if you’re not. Time will keep going forward and pain will fade, and your good choices will eventually pile up into a mountain you can stand on top and look back from. I mean that, because I’m a survivor, and I’m standing on that mountain now. It took a long time but I got there, and you can too.

      Let your life be a testament to the divine beauty that is your own existence. Fuck those people. You are you and you never get another one. So, please, stick around, okay?