ashinadash [she/her]

Decaying corpse animated by gay thoughts and too many painkillers

Highly obnoxious, very autistic, weirdly asexual, rabidly gender accelerationist, ask me about my weird interests

I talk way, way too fucking much.

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Joined 2 years ago
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Cake day: November 3rd, 2023

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  • oh no

    I can never tell why I get quizzical glances from people in public? Is it that I’m anxious and socially awkward looking and they’re concerned for me?

    Oh god oh fuck, uh I just try not to worry about it, if I am feeling nice I smile, if I am feeling confrontational I stare. There’s no knowing how or why people stare, but I don’t think most people (or maybe anyone) stare with that intent, Idk. Fuckin people…

    My cool(ish) queer relative I went with is sweet and supportive overall but I still get a mix of name/deadname and a random D3 roll on pronouns of he/they/she and it’s maddening sometimes

    well I’ve known you as (deadname) since you were a baby!"

    Big “ish”, like I know I have this baseball bat but I just want to talk to 'em… madeline-stare

    I hate this too, I fought people over shit like this. You deserve better treatment and more respect than that at the least.


  • the trans

    something about seeing how much of a Normal Woman(Trans) she seemed like made me extremely self conscious and feel incredibly grotesque and meltdown internally with “oh god why did I stay in denial so long, why didn’t I come out in my teens and transition young, I’m doomed, etc”

    madeline-stare This is why I’m always trying to be both visible and abnormal. I assume I don’t have to tell you that “normal woman” is not the only and ideal goal, but I hope you don’t always frel “grotesque” by comparison…

    meow-hug