Yeah. Some imposter syndrome in there for sure. Years of “you can do even better (at school etc) if you just apply yourself” is hard to overcome.

I’m working on the negative self talk. I intelectualize a lot, so logically I know I do a good job, but I don’t feel it. So when I get 'attaboys it makes that disconnect very conscious, and I’d feel better if they just didn’t say anything.

Or the thought of “I should’ve started this earlier”, which never happens next time.

I did the same thing in my last job. My manager thought I did excellent work every day, and said things like “good work” at the end of the day when I was on reddit for 5 hours.

I did amazing things that was above my position, so my work was excellent, but it felt so wrong when he said good job when I was pretending.

You are accidentally correct! The best kind of corr… Wait a minute!

Death by ignorance. You ate a mushroom that wasn’t the good mushroom.

I’ve tried as well, but the chemicals they put in the water is too addicting to me. Even my dog is addicted. Every day I drink it I always get sleepy after about 15 hours, and then my body crashes due to all the toxins and the dihydrogenmonoxide they put in the water.

I’ve also tried purifying the tap water through the coffee filter, like I saw on tiktoc, but it only helps for a few extra hours compared to when I don’t do it.