90 day probation period is up on the Monday after next. I’m trying to really hoof it and over deliver (like a simp) so I can secure the job, but I’ve just worked myself into a cycle of exhausted because of burnout>take longer to do things because of exhaustion>have to work longer to get things done>more burnout.
Lately I’ve been thinking about how people are mostly reactions to their circumstances, and how I’ve sort of viewed the person I was in uni as the real me, the baseline that the stressed out and anxious person I’ve become has deviated from. Except that stressed out and anxious person is just who I am in the context of struggling to get/keep employment, which means that’s the realer me because this is probably how the rest of my life is gonna look.
FYI pulse tinnitus can be caused by circulation/heart problems so maybe see a doctor if that keeps up. Except your ear hurts so it’s probably not that. Don’t listen to me I’m an idiot.