Mm, I think this is fair

One small thing I want to respond to, it wasn’t just european classics. Dream of the Red Chamber is a Chinese classic (one of the classic novels). And now thinking about it I’ve also read Natsume Soseki’s kokoro. Although I think that too I had issues with the more subliminal/metaphorical messaging in that book, even though I enjoyed it quite a lot. What I’m saying is that I wasnt just trying to read the western classics. But western classics should have some merit to them, as for example Xi Jinping has credited Faust as one of the many books he has read and enjoyed in his life. But of course I’ll diversify as much as I can (that I can find in languages I can actually read).

You’re very correct in what you say about artistic geniuses and what not. This isn’t even just the case in art. For example, Nobel prize winner Richard Feynmann (probably misspelling that) was genuinely a good physicist and science communicator. But he had this myth built up around him and his personality, where he made being a physicist look easy and like you should always be the smartest and most confident person in the world, and that you shouldn’t care what the world thinks of you. But after he died, they pulled out boxes upon boxes of research and papers and such that he used and studied because being a physicist is genuinely very hard work, which you aren’t gifted with overnight.

So what is the definition of art then? At what point can a doodle be considered art?

is it possible youre on the autism spectrum

Maybe? Idk, I might but I’m unsure if it’s that or adhd or just general cptsd issues.

But otherwise I think you’re understanding me well, but English is my first language. It’s more just specifically Haikus that I find clunky in English, and I’ve heard they’re more natural in Japanese.

Sorry, I’m starting to realize I’ve phrased things poorly.

It’s not necessarily what is big and what isn’t. Trust me, I dont mind not enjoying what a lot of people are into while liking my niche.

It’s more like, I do really enjoy certain works, but I dont think I enjoy them the “right way” (for lack of a better term). For instance, I really like Neon Genesis Evangelion, but I feel as though a lot of the philosophy gets stuck halfway in my head. Like i pick up on some the literal things, and I think I can feel what the creator is trying to say, but I myself can express it. And I think I fail to enjoy those concepts and more enjoy the cerebral feeling of it and others like it, like Slay the Princess.

I should’ve also emphasized my lack of ability to enjoy poetry. I’ve enjoyed something in basically every other medium, but for some reason poetry doesn’t click at all for me. I’ve always failed to find the rhythm with it and while others will gush with happiness about them I’ve just…haven’t had the same experience (especially with Haiku. I’ve tried, but Haiku I just can’t write nor really understand very well. Constraints are good but I think English doesn’t work well with the restrictions).

And on the modern art stuff, I understand the CIA supported it and such, but I still do like it. And that same abstractionism is found other places too. Avant-garde art is a thing in china and the Avant-garde movement in Russia/the early Soviet union produced what I think are good works too. One of my favorite is El Lizzitsky’s “Beat the whites with the red wedge.” I also do like Picasso’s work, and he certainly was no cia stooge. Hell, I even like “who’s afraid of red yellow and blue.” If strictly for the reason that it did inspire fear and anger in people.

I don’t like Blake Shelton. Sorry, I worded that poorly

How about this. If some of Yoko Ono’s/John Lennon’s more…abstract work came on while I was eating dinner somewhere, I wouldn’t enjoy it. However I still respect it greatly because they’re trying. Maybe they’re failing, idk, but I still really do respect art such as that or, say, house of leaves more than I do Blake Shelton’s work or the divergent series. In contrast, I would probably not be bothered by Blake shelton’s music coming on at a resteraunt/bar, even if I have 0 respect for him because it’s still just decent music. I just have no respect because I think he (and other artists like him, ie Pitbull) doesn’t actively try to do something new or express themselves in some unique way. More just catching onto a hot trend and talking about the lowest common denominator of guns besr God trucks waman etc.