Been making internet ads more reliable for a few years now. That’s literally my entire job. Making sure that ads get shown on your computer screen with as little errors as possible. I was able to handle it okay at first because it pays well and I have no ability to get another job (combination of awful labor market and low experience) but I’ve been dissociating hard af and have started to get incredibly dark thoughts while at work (I’m perfectly fine outside of it) the last few weeks

It’s not even a fake email job, it’s pretty complex and has a decently high workload too so I can’t just screw around. I actually need to be able to focus deeply for hours every day which is now almost impossible because of how empty and dreadful it’s been making me

Haven’t quit because I’m supporting my partner as well who makes no money living their desired career

  • tamagotchicowboy [he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
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    1 day ago

    Dissociation, this is what I do, its not healthy and it’ll ultimately begin to affect your work performance, but boy is it awesome, do it enough and you can zip around outside your body at will. For more healthy coping skills compartmentalization.