she yells at me for everything. she hits me (not hard) ruins my mental health, doesnt want me talking to anyone besides her.
she says everyone hates me, that only she likes me. then she said that me not knowing social skills and being mentally ill was stupid and that im a terrible person. she told me i should die.
she hates me bc i have a disability, she tried to strangle me once and claim it was a joke. i hate her so much. i have to see her every day.
“im such a bad person for saying that. i didn’t want to tell you why i hate you because that would make me a bad person too”
yeah. you are a bad person, tbh. if you hate people with autism, just say that. “disabled people make me uncomfortable” isn’t as bad as wishing them gone/dead/hurting them.
there’s people who don’t like a group of people and then people who actively harm those people.
if you don’t like something about someone, you tell them why instead of wishing they died and hating them.
also, she’s right. everyone does hate me. she hates me, her friends hate me, my bf hates me, my family controls me and “loves me” even though they yell at me.
The individual you are currently ranting about aside, you would not have a boyfriend or friends if they hated you.
If you have autism, then you understand that your ability to read social cues is limited, especially at your age (I don’t know how old you are other than that it sounds like you are still a minor stuck living with parents). Practice and therapy do help but take time.
Avoid speaking with the person who is being abusive to you as much as is reasonably possible and discuss their behavior with an adult you trust.
Sorry you’re struggling right now, but it can get better.
im 18, and tysmmm :)