Ah yes, the superhuman ability to make my living space a mess
Oh, you didn’t get a side of OCD with your ADHD? It’s a blessing and a curse.
And that doesn’t go there.
I can hyperfocus when others have expectations of me (work), but in context of my own life and what I want to do with it, I can’t put the mental burden of managing me on someone else, and whenever anyone has tried I get become defiant against… my own self interests? FML.
Well, it’s been well established that taking drugs is a superpower
Gonna have to remember that line for the next time I’m at a party
I leverage hyperfixation at work. To me, it feels like a superpower. To everyone else, it’s just really hard to get my attention.
It’s pretty rare to be able to decide what to hyperfocus on. Without meds, work puts me to sleep.
I’m either invested in the project, or my unhealthy fear of failure fuels the anxiety that forces hyperfocus. I don’t recommend the latter if you can avoid it. It’s exhausting.
I used to think it was too. I’d been leveraging hyperfocus my whole life. But I would still fall short of what I could’ve achieved if I had started what I was doing earlier. And it started getting real tiring that whenever this would happen if forget to drink, eat, go to the toilet etc. everything would become a “once I’m done with this bit, then I’ll…” But it just does not end because the task is too big but it needs to be done by tomorrow so I can’t have a break.
Which is why I got an actual medical diagnosis recently. (I had a diagnosis from college, but because of when it happened it was more of a “you had adhd as a kid, but you’re an adult now so you learned to cope” kind of diagnosis). And now I’m on a titration period to find out what works for me. So far elvanse 30mg seems to only work for a few hours for me and it’s been making me hyperfocus (with more of the bad stuff, because there isn’t an impending deadline) right at the very end of the work day, where it’s no longer working fully. I’m hoping my higher dosage next week sorts that.
Sorry for this wall. Don’t think your comment warranted even half of this, but I’ve wrote it down now.
Hyperfocus at work. Lol
I used meds for a few years, but I felt like I was borrowing productivity from later in the day. After a while, I only felt capable at work, and was drained in the evenings and on the weekends. They are really helpful if you can find a good balance. I hope it works well for you!
Thanks, I hope so too
The superpower of stumbling through life always feeling behind your peers (except for stuff that actually hooks your attention), getting addicted to self medication without realizing you’re self medicating, failing out of college twice, getting diagnosed as an adult and then mourning for all the time and struggle wasted pre diagnosis, working with the Dr to find the right aid for you, feeling fucking amazing for the first week on drugs doing all the things, then your body gets used to them and things slow down again and you realize you still need to do hella work on your self discipline because just the prescription isn’t all that’s needed to get things done.
Congrats, you’re now in your 30’s and functioning like neurotypicals were a decade ago. Such a cool superpower.
Yeah in the US, at least on employment forms, ADHD is classified as a disability.
Not that it’s wise to admit to it or that you’d get accommodations anyway but still. “Differently abled” my ass. /rant
